Wednesday, January 14, 2009 . motivation.

I just came back from the gym and practically almost killed myself running at 14.3 on the treadmill and sprinting round the stadium with metal blasting out of my hp like a madman.

Yeah, gym helps destress.

Was reading through Tom Venuto's Burn The Fat Feed The Muscle (which is like, a godly book btw) and was reading through the mind part. Its very, very motivating. It says how painting a mental picture of yourself doing something or getting something you want can actually help you to get there. Some examples:

-Andre Aggasi pictured himself winning Wimbeldon 10000 times. You cant deny he;s one of the greatest tennis players ever today.

-Three time Mr. Olympia Frank Zane said that he mentally saw himself winning the Mr. Olympia at least one million times before it actually happened.

If they can, why cant I?

I'm gonna get 6 points for O lvel, L1 R5, only less, no more.

But before that, there's more.
I have to convince myself that:
-Homework must all be done
-I have to understand EVERY SINGLE DETAIL of every subject
-I have to revise my work everyday.

Let's see. Im returning to the gym 3 times a week and cardio 5-7 times a week. Sounds insane? Running 5-7 times is insane in my opnion but that is what i have to do if i were to get lean and get that 6-pack abs i always wanted and the respect i want.

I want to be able to look great with a shirt off. e.g. at the beach. No more mr. fat fucker or big ass. No more emoing around ectomorphic skinny guys just because Im fat and short. No more stupid stares from people when i walk around in my school uniform. No more having to choose clothes; just buy one designed for slim people and fit in. No need to buy size 32 jeans; go down to 28.

I probably painted those picture a few hundred times. It does motivate.
So time to paint myself working hard for O levels.

I want to be able to show that i can score 6 points for O levels. No more lazy asshole, no more slacker, no more sucker who gets a pink form for not doing something as simple as homework. No more nonsense. Yes to understanding topics well. Yes to doing TYS. Yes to studying really really really hard.

Yup. Those are explicit goals.

Im going to finish writing the vocal melody and lyrics for my band's first song. Post it up soon.

Ciao people.

- this theoretic realization... 9:42 PM
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